i still wanna play god...

this post goes out to the following target audience...

people who:

1. love photography
2. wud appreciate a photographer par excellance
3. wudnt mind the photographer to be an extremely hot 28 yr old gal
4. wudnt be turned off by the fact that she has 2 kids...and a bf
5. wud go to all the first link below and spend atleast an hour on it...
6. wudnt think that i have a huge crush on her...

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i rarely visit my flickr account. its usually only to upload snaps and the weekly check for any comments...which surprisingly have experienced a huge jump in number lately...!

so this afternoon..close to when i was almost done with all work for the day...i opened my account...and saw Rebecca's latest snap

Rebecca...who...??

this is precisely the time you click on the link below...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebba/

1. she is the undisputed goddess of flickr
2. simply the best self portraits i have seen (http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebba/sets/454414/)
3. possible the best use of long exposure techniques (http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebba/sets/1260435/)
4. she has mastered the art of multiplicity...something that i am fascinated by...and hv no clue to..(http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebba/sets/1058377/)
5. and...she has clicked my fav snap of all times...(http://www.flickr.com/photos/rebba/32296282/in/set-72157594277460673/)

ofcourse...given the crappy me...i have analyzed her a lot...through her snaps...and at times her responses to the hazaar comments to her snaps...! and i must say that i am impressed...(i almost wrote obsessed here!)...more so since she is self taught...

i find her ability to look at life through her lens fascinating. i wonder what goes on in her head when she picks up the camera..and clicks. i wish i cud capture that moment..that brain wave..!

i even wish she wasnt as narcissistic...but then i still wanna play god....even with something so perfect...

~a

PS:

1. apart from her flickr world...she also rests on her main page (http://www.rebekkagudleifs.com/)
2. she is currently participating in some shitty shady competition...her profile is here. Somehow i wish she hadnt...but dont pay attention to my wish...just read the title to this entry...and move on..!!

back in time...

11.30pm
The Shangri-la, Dubai

the tv infront...switched off...the bed untouched...wood finish working table...a few pennies...a virgin kitchenette...the cupboard half open...jst the tablelamp on...

click

lights off...close my eyes...jst the darkness with me...

click click

the table infront of me...books on the shelves above...the incense stick almost done...matress behind with the lamp above...10 watt bulb...windows open....the girls outside...and i can feel the breeze...have to get the assignment done...but this is just so soothing...hv to read up for tomorrow's class...but what the heck...its 3 in the morning...

Koi nahi hai koi bhi nahi
Na pass na durr
Ek pyaar hai
Dil ki dharkan
Apni chahat ka jo ellan kiye jaati hai
Zindagi hai jo jiye jaati hai
Khoon ke ghoont peay jaati hai
Khwaab kaanton se siye jaati hai
...
...
Yadoon ka jungle yeh dil
Kaanton se jal thal yeh dil
Chubtay kaanten yadoon ke daaman se chunta hoon
Girti deewaron ke aanchal mein zinda hoon


its these times that i realize the power of the human mind...
yesterday...for a moment...for just a moment...for just a very special moment...
...i was back at isb...
...i went back in time...
...and it was just so amazing...

...just so amazing...

yeh hai meri kahaani...

~a

love this part of me...

so this is cool...you work for 3 days and its time to go back home....!!

last weekend was a long one. was home for 4 days...took sunday off and monday was a public holiday. awesome fun. watched a movie...(Dor...quite a good watch..!)...and went for dandiya on saturday.

its funny how every thing remotely connected to dance...in delhi...has to turn into a bhangra one..! whats funnier is that no matter how much one cribs about it...you will definitely move your ass once it starts...!

so we had..none other than...the world famous...Bhupi...for the bhangra...oops...dandiya night..!! god..u shud hv seen the girls tearing their cholis apart....shouting "we loveeeeeee u bhupiiiiiiiiiiiiii"...and he doing that..."la la dhin chik dhin chik dhin chik...la dhin chik dhin chik dhin chik..." dance...!! the dandiya beats added to the punch...

and then the food was quite awesome...! it was shit expensive though...and i find it so fascinating how your atittude towards money keep evolving depending on how much you earn...

i remember the one time when i waited like anything for the x-files movies to release in India...i mean i waited...like crazy. and when i came...i thought...nahhh...its too expensive (and at 50 bucks a month as pocket money...it surely was)...will watch it later (and i did...4 yrs hence..when it came on TV..i saw it with my hands folded...it was religion for me..!!)...

and then those numerous times when you see something in the shop...and go...oh this looks so awesome...wonder how much it is......for....CRAP...!!! too expensive...

and now...by the grace of god...things are smooth...and the time spent on buying things is much lesser...! which makes me wonder...does hving money make u less of a 'deal-seeker'...!! i mean...i remember that part of me which used to browse and browse thru shit loads of sites...before i cud find the cheapest possible deal on a particular item...(and a cheap deal is not a bad deal in my scheme of things...its value for money).

but today when i hv to buy a papri chaat...i bloody fork out 40 bucks...!! obviously thats not a deal...!! especially when you had that same precise shit about 4 hours back...for 15..!!!

people say money makes one powerful...!! yeah right...!! money simply makes u lazy...! it all boils down to convenience..!!

i hate this part of me...

so today...i spent 3 hours...ofcourse...in office...searching for a holiday package for my folks. and i searched and searched...searched like crazy..!! i didnt get the deal i was looking for...but in the process i did find myself back..!!

love this part of me...

~a