Friday, August 04, 2006

cryptic...

trinnnggg....triiingggg....

Mirror: yo...not feeling urself?

Me: dont know dude....wanted to...but something doesnt feel right...

Mirror: i know...its strange right..when something tht is close to you...doesnt mean as much to someone else...

Me: I KNOWW....!! how cud they ever forget whatever happened....did they not feel IT...?

Mirror: maybe they did...and maybe thats precisely why they dont wanna feel it anymore. its not tht u left them with a choice...

Me: i am being selfish here...i always was...and i told them all through...at times to no avail...

Mirror: i am glad you realized that...

Me (smiling to himself): so...whatver i said that evening...is actually turning out to be true...

Mirror: hahaha....as if you didnt know it would.

Me: yahhh...it had to happen...and i dont think i should be bothered anymore...not anymore...

Mirror: :)

Me: thanks dude...

Mirror: thank her...

..................................hang up

the entire city infront of me....not a soul in sight...machines making their way through turns and lights...the skyscrapers blinking....my hands folding...my eyes closing...this was always meant to be...involuntary drops of water...my job is done...

Me: i let go...

~a

16 comments:

Ekta said...

i dunno what went wrong...btu this sure is a touchy post...read it twice...
I do believe that u can move on only if u let go and thats the most difficult thing to do...do hope things get better!
All the best!

ankur said...

Ekta:
thanks a lot. even i realized tht..! :)
and thanks for introducing me to your blog..! take care

educatedunemployed said...

Whoa, one of those.."What the hell happened there" moments.Ive had one too many of my own.One thing I figured, things happen they way they had to happen.If you enjoyed what you had, then leave it at that and move on.Give them the benefit of the doubt, why harbour a bitter taste to it all.No point, any which way,if they aren't around they probably don't want to be.

ankur said...

MG:
Figured...! jst felt like bloggin the monologue..! nayi movie ki script hai..! :)
no seriously..thanks..! means a lot

educatedunemployed said...

You know, you can always consult me to add to the mellowdrama in your script.I have been told I am good at it.;)

ankur said...

MG:
knew i cud count on u! so what...u wud mellow it down..or add drama..?

educatedunemployed said...

Whaddya think..;)

Anonymous said...

dont think it was a JOB was it?:) and you're right, people feel varying degress of emotions, maybe she felt it more earlier and you less, and now you feel it more.. who knows..

its very surprising to me that someone as pragmatic as you can be so melodramatic:)

so man in the mirror.. what dyu think, was it a job well done?

ankur said...

Anon:
thats not a question i can answer. if i cud...i wudnt hv been in this position.

but yah...it was never a job..! and if u think hard...thats exactly what doesnt make me pragmatic..!

beautiful life

:)

Anonymous said...

dear ankur,

This is yamini this side...
jst read ur blog n realisd ur in dubai..dunno if ure still here..but do mail me incase u are...
shall give u my no..am in dubai too

tac care
yamini

ankur said...

Yamini:
OMG...i totally forgot that you are in dubai too...!! awesome shit...

will mail u my number

~a

Unknown said...

sorry but to ask the obvious question..

"trrrrrinnggg...trrrinngg"
Mirror: ".."

trrrrinngg....and Mirror(???)

ankur said...

spew:
http://spewatschool.blogspot.com/ for the answer to such questions

Unknown said...

b$$$$$$D!

ankur said...

Spew:
Those were precisely my words too...when i accessed the blog. i am glad we operate on a common wavelength..!

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